Friday, 17 June 2011

I'm back ... and I have a degree

I'm a bad blogger :s I can't believe it's been almost 2 months without a post. Obviously I was busy doing my exams but they finished about three weeks ago now. I've just been pretty depressed these last few weeks and beside myself with worry about how I had done in the exams. Well this afternoon the wait was finally over. I passed! I got a third, which I know isn't much to shout about, but I am just so relieved I even passed right now. Oh fuck it I'm very very happy :) I know most people are going to think I'm strange for being happy with a 3rd class degree but screw them all. I was on course for a fail and somehow I managed to pull my average up into a comfortable pass. And I didn't fail any modules for the first time since first year! I even passed my project which I was totally convinced I had screwed up.
I can't even put into words how much of a relief this is. I am so proud of myself right now. I've been saying the last few weeks that university has been a complete waste of time because I was sure I had failed but suddenly it all seems worthwhile again. All my housemates have got either 2:1s or 1sts and I could easily let that get me down, but let's be frank - my degree was a lot harder than all of theirs. Seriously. I won't say what they studied because I wouldn't want to offend anyone but I've had a look at some of their modules and some of them are a complete joke. I know I sound like a complete cow but it helps with my self esteem to believe it!

So now I've got to find something to do with my life. I'm not really sure what I want to do at the moment. I had been putting off making plans just in case I had to resit but now that I don't I had better get thinking.
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  1. Anonymous17 June 2011 at 18:17

    Melanie, congratulations on passing! I hope you find time to savor this while you can before moving on to finding a job or whatever you have planned. Congrats, again! :)

    - Mike

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  2. Mr. Shy and Timid17 June 2011 at 18:51

    Congrats :) Take pride in what you've accomplished.

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  3. Jill27 June 2011 at 13:56

    Melanie, congratulations! Getting thru college under the best of circumstances is tough. Getting thru college with social phobia is unbelievably hard. I know because I did it myself. The classes, the tests, the social scene, all of it triggers the insecurities and mental shit social phobics put themselves thru on a daily basis. You deserve to be proud!!

    Now on to your bright and wonderful future! Many blessings!

    Now on to

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  4. Melanie4 July 2011 at 23:26

    thanks for the comments people :)

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